Home Sweet Home

(7/17/11)
Being home has been such a wonderful feeling! I really had mixed feelings about coming home.. I was excited, but so nervous at the same time.. I wanted to be home more then ever, to hold my kids, have a normal routine, and finally relax! But in the back of my mind I was thinking, "How am I going to do all of this without a nurse!" BrynLee isn't alot of work, but when she was fussy and we had to be somewhere I just handed her over to the nurse and she would rock her until she fell asleep.. They always took care of her wound and emptied her urine bag. They taped the tube on her belly and they gave her all of her meds.. I was never there at night, we left by 10 and didn't come back until 7:30 the next morning! This was all going to be new to me!

When we got home BrynLee snuggled right in. She's my first baby that's actually like a bassinet! She's a quiet sleeper and doesn't really grunt or squirm unless she's going to wake up and ready to eat.. She likes the swing, but not for very long.. She doesn't like the binki, which didn't surprise me too much because neither did Aybri! For the most part, she's very easy.. She wakes up to eat, I change her diaper, she eats some more and back to bed.. She has gauze that needs to be changed with every diaper change and medicine that she has to take once a day!
The first night we were home she went to bed about 10:30, got up at 2 and again at 6.. It was nice because for some reason after we were home the exhaustion really set in.. I think it was because I finally let myself relax! At the hospital it was go, go, go - all the time, whether I was tired or not! At home I could finally sit down and I knew I didn't have to run around a hospital all day!
Yesterday (Saturday) BrynLee got her first bath at home.. I had Austyn helping me, so BrynLee was being a little impatient! We got it done as quickly as possible! It was so nice to have her smell like a baby, with yummy baby lotion, and not a hospital! Every day in the hospital I told her she'd like home so much better because it didn't smell like that stinky hospital! (Not that it smelled bad, just like a hospital!)
Saturday night she didn't sleep quite as well.. She slept until about 1:30, then wanted to eat every hour until 4:30.. Not sure what that was about, but hey, it could have been worse! I slept in until after 8 and since Jocko took the girls to six-mile resivoir today I got a great nap!
I didn't think I was ready to be alone, but I've done pretty good so far.. They have been gone for almost 6 hours now and I am getting a little antsy, but hopefully they'll be home soon! I slept for 2 hours which was so nice! I even woke up on my own.. Not to an alarm, or a crying baby, or fighting kids! It was so nice!
So now I just wait for Jocko and my girls to get home.. It's crazy how much I miss them even though they've only been gone for a short time!